it never ends...

6:26 p.m. - 2004-03-01

So yesterday was an interesting day. For the most part I was pretty bummed on the girl front. Like I said, no real reason, I think sometimes we're just supposed to be bummed, it's sort of how we deal with things. I've found that I've always been a pretty happy-go-lucky guy so I think feeling a little out of it can be good for the soul. Although lately it's just starting to tick me off..lol. I don't know why girls have such an effect on me, it really isn't right. I think the "all mighty" played a real cruel joke on mankind when he associated so much pain with so much pleasure (aka. love). On that note, I was also talking with a girl that I used to date last night. We're totally just friends so there's no issue there. She was online so we chatted for awhile - she is having major problems with her boyfriend right now. The guy is really screwing her around, which I've noticed seems to happen to everyone. Here's the situation, the guy is recently separated from his wife, he's got a house and a dog that he still shares with her. He's been with his wife since she was 15 and he's really all she's ever known - she also still wants to be with him. He of course "says" that he doesn't want to be with her although it's been over a year since they separated and he still sees her on a regular basis. It's also curious to note that he's cheated on his wife once before and she still wants to be with him. I tell you - people in love are crazy. The guy has been basically spending time with his girlfriend during the week, and his separated wife on the weekend (although it's more of just a "drop in" thing...supposedly). Every time he promises to spend time with my friend on the weekend he makes some lame excuse why he can't - which is really quite rotten. Not only that but he continually says how much he loves her and how much he cares for the girlfriend all the time, but he can't "give" her what she wants - aka. in my opinion, someone that will give up his ex and move on with his life.

Let's go back to my theory again, the odds of finding someone that feels exactly the way you do, at exactly the same time, that will last for more than a couple years are so great, it's a wonder why we even try. The funny thing is that most of the people over 30 are married...interesting. Like my divorced friends say, half the people married are divorced, and the other half are thinking about it!! The situation that my friend has is tough, she obviously cares very much for this guy, but he's being a dick and not facing the music (i.e. to commit to her). The fact that he's screwing her around is just making her hurt even more - which is just cruel. If you can't commit to the person then you shouldn't be "involved". To be honest I think this guy just wants a good looking girl on the "side" that makes him feel good while maintaining a secure relationship with his ex.

I don't know, I think all relationships are screwed no matter what you do (bitter, eh??). I'm such an eternal fatalist. I'm glad she felt comfortable enough to talk to me about her problems though. I have very few girl "friends" that it's nice to be able to be there for them when they're feeling blue or need someone to talk to. I probably talked with her for about 3 hrs+ last night, trying to help her out. The hurt that she has with her boyfriend is very similar with what I had with Karen - and the fact that we can relate to each other in that way helps both of us out. It actually made me feel better being able to tell her that what she's feeling is not uncommon. Although I don't think I made her feel better - lol. One thing though, if you're my friend I'll ALWAYS be there - no matter what. Good friends are hard to find - I still have a couple friends from high school that I know I'll always have, whether we talk all the time or not. It's almost a given.

Anyways, one more week until Ireland!! I think I'm going to set myself a goal - how many brain cells I can kill in one vacation :). Maybe I'll inform The Guinness book of world records - oh no wait, maybe I'll just inform the Guinness brewery instead..lol.

"If you don't like what I say fuck off, who cares, no one really likes you anyway"

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